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Motivational Tools


Today was supposed to be an 8 mile walk/run day but it looked like it was going to rain so I decided to put my workout off until tomorrow. I started the day with a haircut, which was badly needed. Then I headed to The Woodlands’ Market Street. When I got there, I noticed a small shop called The Cupcakery. Uh oh…Yep I gave in.

Bad Tammy…I know…and unfortunately, it wasn’t at all worth it. It was dry and tasted like a cupcake bought at Krogers. It was a fun little place though.

I did very well in my first month of eating Paleo and lost 12 pounds. Unfortunately, I’ve lost a little motivation to stay away from all unapproved foods because I had made my 30 day mark. Needless to say, my eating poorly 1 day a week for the past 3 weeks has led me to making poorer and poorer food choices. So, I decided to find another motivational tool. I found this adorable dress that is my goal size (final size).

Isn’t it beautiful!! I have big plans for this dress when I can fit into it. Now, I just have to figure out where I’ll wear it to! Tomorrow I’ll begin eating strict Paleo again. Time to get my eating back under control. I’ve let myself down, especially when I see the trend getting worse again. There’s a reason I was 250lbs at one time.


Post 200 and Counting


Today is my 200th post! That’s pretty exciting. Granted, not all of my posts have been about losing weight but rather my goof ups and gaining weight. Today’s post isn’t too far from that mark. Saturday was supposed to be my long run/walk day but I wasn’t feeling it. So, I stayed home and read…all day.

Sunday came along and I read a little bit more (was getting to the end of my book) then made myself get dressed to go workout. I made a deal with myself. I would allow myself to read 1 chapter when I got to the park then 1 more when I finished my workout. Really, all I wanted to do was stay home and finish my book. However, the weather was gorgeous and I was so glad I made myself get out of the house. The walk was supposed to  have been 4 miles, which I thought I had made but in reality I only went 3.8 miles. I was ok with that though. Next Saturday is an 8 mile day…yikes! Since I determined that I wanted to be able to run a mile by the end of February, I decided to do some running at the beginning of my workout. Unfortunately, I didn’t have pockets except for the ones in my jacket that was tied around my waist. As I was trotting along, my stuff started falling out of my pockets. I guess that’s what you get when they’re bouncing along! So, I decided to get back to the walk and will continue running on the treadmill this next week and make sure my pants have pockets when I get to the park next time.

That’s all I have on the exercise front today. Now, let’s discuss food. Saturday my husband came back from the grocery store and dumped the bags off for me to put away. He seemed to be in a good mood as he chatted with me while I was unloading his purchases. All of a sudden he says “I got something for you. But it may make you mad.” Now…I don’t know about you but when I hear that I’m thinking maybe he got me something to help with my weight loss and he thinks I may get upset by interpreting it as him calling me fat. So, I smile and say “that’s sweet of you. I doubt I’ll get upset. What did you get?” At this point, Mike leaves the house to go out to the car. When he comes back he’s holding these:

Oh my…chocolate covered strawberries…mmmm…. Mike had this expectant look on his face which made me smile. He’s such a sweet man! I told him thank you picked up the smallest of the bunch. I offered one to Mike, which he took one of the bigger ones. We work well in that aspect!

I have to say, I was disappointed. It wasn’t that good. The chocolate kept crumbling off and the strawberry wasn’t very sweet. However, it was the thought that counted! AND…I was not upset with myself for eating one. I may be eating Paleo, but I’m still going to enjoy things from time to time. Mike took the last two to his parents on Sunday.

Then Sunday I had a somewhat bad food day. First, I didn’t eat all that much, good food that is. I had a grapefruit for breakfast and some beef jerky later in the day. I had to go by the mall to pick up some items and decided to allow myself one of the small double doozies from the Great Cookie Company. It was yummy! Again, I wasn’t going to be upset with myself over that. However, I should have passed it up since I had already had the strawberry the day before. When I got home Mike decided he wanted to go out for dinner. We ended going to Outback where I had a Paleo friendly meal, until dessert. We shared a slice of cheesecake. *sigh*

So, all three of those mishaps were enough to make me mentally slap myself. I don’t expect to have lost much this month because I’ve gone somewhat crazy on my “cheat” days, while I’ve gotten some control over that the damage has been done. I’m just hoping I haven’t gained weight at this point! I need to be strict and stick to my own rules. I only have 1 day a week where I can eat food that is not on my diet. None of this, small piece today and a small piece tomorrow. That leads to a big piece in the long run.

This morning, I decided to try my plant pose again. I ended up with 1 minute this time! Yeah baby…

A Step Toward Beating Cancer


This morning I woke up with the thought “I don’t want to do this race today.” It wasn’t that I didn’t want to do the mileage, I was just tired and it was awfully cold in the house. I peeled myself out of bed about 6:30 and went to brush my teeth when…no water came out. I went into the living room and Mike said he thought the water had frozen in the well house. Last time this happened we just had to wait for it to thaw out and there weren’t any other issues. Unfortunately, this was not our problem. We had a busted pipe. Since it was supposed to be in the 50’s today and it was around 26 when we went to bed, we figured we’d be fine. Little did we know that it would actually get below 20.

I used bottled water to brush my teeth and piled on the clothes. It was still 20 degrees when we got to the park. When we walked toward the race area we noticed signs with all of the names of those people racers were running in honor of or memory of.

The race helps raise money to fight Lymphoma. Bill Crews started it after finding out he was in remission from the cancer. This was the 4th year the race was held. Mike and I picked up our packets and then did our best to stay warm. There was ice everywhere, which was rather pretty.

They ran out of safety pins, so we went numberless. I had my number in my pocket, but had no way of connecting it to my shirt. We thought the race started at 8, but that was when the kids and family 1 mile run/walk took place. They had all the kids (and some of the parents) lined up at the starting line and had them wait while a local choir sang. Once the song was over and the choir was back on their school bus they let the little ones start the race.

While they were doing their race Mike was running around trying to warm up and I was trying to determine whether it was possible to get frostbite in 20 degree weather. My toes and feet were so cold I could barely feel them. Everyone else was jumping around, including the mascot of the Valentine’s Day Run, Smoochie.

Finally, we were able to line up about 8:20. Mike and I walked to the back of the crowd. There weren’t very many people there which I’m guessing is a result of the weather. They began by reading the names of all of the people we were running for. Then we had the National Anthem. At this point I’m ready to call it quits and get back in the warm car. Finally, at 8:45 the gun sounds and we’re off. I broke two of my race rules today. #1) I started too fast. This caused me to get shin splints which slowed me down in the long run. #2) I didn’t pay attention to my time.

My feet were so cold I couldn’t really feel them as I was running out of the shoot. However, I definitely felt my shin splints. I passed Mike about mile 1 (his mile 2) He was hauling it! About this time all I could think of was finding a bathroom as soon as this race was done! Mike had finished the race and come back to meet me around mile 2. He finished the rest of the race with me. I got passed a few times, but at the end I also passed a couple of people. This is where my second rule was broken. I didn’t pay attention to where I was on my time. If I had, I would have seen that by pushing harder earlier I would have made a PR for this race. Instead, I was too preoccupied with finding a bathroom. I felt I was going so slow as it was because of my shins that there was no way I was even close to getting a good time. By the time I started pushing, it was too late. I finished in 50:20 (16 seconds shy of my PR). Mike finished in 20:50, which was a PR for him!

I was glad I had done the race once I was finished. While I wanted to stay in bed, I would have been very disappointed in myself. I’m already aggravated with myself for not pushing harder. Don’t get me wrong, I was pooped when I crossed the finish line but I still had something left I could have given.

Taken before the race

Mike actually passed Bill Crews to beat him at the end. He didn’t know who it was, but their times are neck and neck on the results page. Mike came in 4th for his age group and Bill came in 5th. It was good race once we got moving and warmed up. Toward the end we kept having to go around soccer people getting ready for a tournament but most of them were good enough to get out of the way.

I learned to always check my time. There is no reason why I shouldn’t have known where I was since I had the watch on my wrist! I also learned that I need to leave it all out on the race track. When I pass the finish line I should be gassed from giving it all I had. However, it was a good race and NO BLISTERS!!

Once we got home, we had to fix the pipe.

Notice anything odd about this? Yep…you’re right. The nozzle is hanging upside down. Unfortunately we couldn’t save the elbow joint so we did what we could for now to get our water running. We’ll revisit this again at a later date!

Today’s the Day


I started my new diet today. Although, I guess I should call it “nutrition lifestyle” instead of diet. Basically, I’m in the process of cutting out all processed foods, breads, rice, and grains from my diet. Being that I have Poly Cystic Ovarian Syndrome (PCOS), I am supposed to be eating a very limited amount of carbs. Most people with PCOS also have insulin resistance (and I do) which can be brought on by a diet high in refined carbs. That describes my diet most of my life. I never liked vegetables, so I never ate them…other than green beans. Cakes, candy, cookies…mmmm…I could live on sweets alone. Unfortunately, the sweets were reeking havoc on my system.

Earlier this year I went to my well woman exam and they did blood work. I just knew it would come back saying I was a type 2 diabetic…or at least a pre-diabetic. My diet had been poor for so long that I figured it was just a matter of time before it caught up with me. Luckily, the results came back A-OK except for a couple of things. My hormone levels were a little out of whack (thanks to PCOS) and I had too much yeast in my system. The doctor had told me to cut out all foods with yeast. Have you seen what all has yeast in it? EVERYTHING!! So, I said “sure sure” and went on about my business.

I had been eating decently this past year. My main concern was watching calories instead of the types of food I was eating. I’m finally starting to realize just how fragile life/health is and that it needs to be taken care of regardless of how “hard” it may be. So, that’s what lead me to where I am today. I’m already craving carbs! It will probably take a while before those cravings are gone, but I’ve kicked the cravings before so I’ll do it again. My main hope is that this will help me get my hormone levels back to normal and in the meantime help me lose some weight as well!

This past weekend I went to Shreveport to celebrate my Grandparents’ (Dad’s side) 59th wedding anniversary. I had a blast. I forgot all about exercise and eating correctly. We had rich, calorie/sugar laden foods and plenty of high calorie drinks. While I probably gained a couple of pounds (after that pecan pie…mmmm) but I’m not going to beat myself up for the way I ate. I knew I was starting the new way of eating today, so I enjoyed my refined carbs while I could.

Hello? Anybody Home?


Ok, so I’ve been out of pocket for a while. I had to fly up to Philly for a week to train some people in our office up there. Needless to say, I didn’t eat well and I didn’t exercise. Nope…not once. My husband went with me, so on Monday we were able to walk around downtown and enjoy the sites a bit, but once the boss and everyone got up there we all went to dinner and didn’t get back until late.

I weighed myself on Saturday and I weighed in at 218.1, which is exactly what I weighed last Friday. So, yes, I had to pay Michelle last Friday but not this week. I was flabbergasted that I hadn’t gained anything but NOT upset! I also didn’t count any calories, so I’m not really able to update my bodybugg and get an accurate reading. I will do my best to get it up to date.

I’m back at work this week and am able to get to the gym without any problems (hopefully). We’re watching my brother-in-law’s dog for the next two weeks. All 150 lbs of St. Bernard! Did I mention I’m allergic to dogs?! One of my pups seems to enjoy having her around, even though Kelly won’t play with Ruby. However, Ellie wants nothing to do with the behemoth!

Here’s hoping your week goes well!



I was doing some memory tracing looking at previous posts and came across my weigh in on 2/15. I was at 218.6 and that’s almost what I weighed last Friday. So, what does that say? It says I’ve been a lazy ass!! I should be down to at least 180 by now. I don’t think 10 lbs a month is too much to ask for. But, like Michelle says “can’t look back, only forward.” There’s no sense in it except to give myself a kick in the tush.

Michelle and I have an agreement, to which I’ve already lost $20. Tomorrow is another weigh in day and I have a feeling I’m going to lose another $20. We were originally going to do this for the month of July, but now we’ve agreed to do this through the end of the year. YIKES!

I’m seriously lacking motivation…I’m just….done. I don’t want to worry about calories or what I eat or working out or…or…or. Alas, I have two choices. 1) Choose to be healthy and put the work in or 2) choose to be unhealthy and pay the consequences. I read a statement somewhere that said “Being fat is hard, losing weight is hard, choose your hard.” With that in mind, I’ve been chosing the fat hard. Don’t know why. I also know that you shouldn’t wait for motivation to hit before you do anything…you should just do it and the motivation will come.

I’m still exercising, but not 5 days a week like I should. I’m still somewhat watching my calories, but not eating the number I’m supposed to. In other words, I’ve been lazy. I will turn it around. It’ll take time…but it will be done.



I wasn’t feeling it on Monday. I didn’t want to go workout. I would have rather gone home and read. However, I drug my tush to the gym and got in a workout. It was a horrible workout though. My shins started bothering me as I was getting into it, so I slowed down a bit. I got some running in, but not as much as I would have liked. I stopped at 30 minutes, which was the minimum I was going to do.

Then today, I didn’t go workout. I’m just not feeling it much. I will give it more on Thursday. I just needed a little bit of rest.

I promised pictures of the Garmin FR60. This is the lady’s version, which is only different from the men’s version by the strap. My arm looks quite hairy here…it’s really not that bad!

The watch isn’t too bad. It’s actually quite comfortable when you’re wearing it.

The little set of eyes in the background is my dog trying to figure out what I’m doing!