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Do I Have To?


I have a confession to make. It’s 10AM and I’m still sitting on the couch in my pajamas. Why is this a problem? Because I’m scheduled to do a 10 miler today and I’m just not motivated to go.

So, what am I going to do about it? I’m going to fake it ’til I feel it! I’ll take my Kindle with me to the park, read a chapter when I get there, then do my walk that I’m totally excited about (see how that works? :p) and then read another chapter when I’m done. I may also go to the used book store and try to find a copy of Jane Eyre. There’s a new movie coming out (or maybe it’s already out) for the book that looks really good. I’d like to read the book first though.

Ok…enough typing…I’m off to ENJOY a 10 mile walk in this beautiful weather we’re having.


Reality TV?


Today I was flipping through channels when I came across a show called Bridalplasty. What the heck is Bridalplasty?

I was completely floored. What makes these ladies think that they have to go through all of this plastic surgery to have a perfect wedding day? All of these ladies are beautiful the way they are. They don’t need nose jobs, boob jobs, tummy tucks. I understand that people undergo plastic surgery for specific reasons and that’s fine. It is your choice as to why you would have surgery. What I have a problem with is someone telling the “Bride to be” that she needs liposuction, a little tweak to her nose, bigger breasts, and skin removed in order to be beautiful on her wedding day.  A healthy diet and exercise does wonders for people. So, why not try that first before going under the knife?

Reality TV is not very realistic anymore. Not that it was ever a true interpretation of most people’s day to day life.

Learning to Let Go


Yesterday afternoon (about 3) the family made the choice to remove my Grandpa from the respirator. It was a hard decision but the right one (the one Grandpa would want). They believe he suffered a stroke on Saturday and is now not able to move his right side. He’s not reacting to anyone when off sedation, is in great pain when awake, and has MRSA.  He has lived a full life of 89 years and his poor body is so tired and broken down. I love him dearly and will miss his lively stories!

7/9/1921 – 1/11/2011

Goodbye 2010


Lately I’ve seen several blog posts that refer to New Years Resolutions. I gave up resolutions a little while back. In order to change my life and be a healthier person, that’s something I need to work on day after day, year after year. I do have goals, don’t get me wrong, but resolutions to me are things that people come up with when the excitement of the new year is here then forget about as time goes by.

2010 has been a mixed year. My husband and I were blessed with how well we were able to save up money and get some things paid off (like our truck!). However, I lost my Grandmother and will soon be losing my last Grandfather. My Grandfather is 89 years old and had just celebrated his 59th wedding anniversary this month. Yesterday he was found in the bathroom, not breathing. My Uncle Tim was able to give him mouth to mouth until the ambulance got there. Come to find out he has pneumonia and the fluid was restricting his heart. Last night, according to the doctors,  it was just a matter of getting the fluid removed. This afternoon I got the news that he’s not doing well and will more than likely not pull through this. He has a blood clot in his lung that they can’t remove, due to his age. So, now I’m in the same position I was in at the end of September…waiting for a loved one to pass on. I don’t which is hardest: having a family member pass away suddenly without a chance to say goodbye or having them hang on while you watch them go but being able to let them know they’re loved.

Compared to many of my friends, I have been extremely lucky in the Grandparent category. My Great Grandmother was part of my life until she passed away when I was 14. How many people get 14 years with a Great Grandparent? I am close to all of my Grandparents and didn’t lose my first one until I was 28. So, I am thankful for all of the time I’ve had with them.

Here’s hoping 2011 brings new/better changes!

Get Your Motor Running


Wednesday was a running/walking day. I turned the TV on “The Sing Off” and watched while I got my miles in. I ran for a few 3 minute spells, then walked the rest. All in all, I got in about 5.5 miles. I was tired afterward, but felt alright. My official 1/2 marathon training starts on Monday!! I’m both nervous and excited about the race. My brain was telling me, if I can put up with the pain of CrossFit then I can walk 13 miles. While I still think I can walk 13 miles without any trouble, part of my brain is telling me I’ve bitten off more than I can chew. So, I’m trying to push that thought down to the basement and get going! I’ve also decided I’m going to do a walk/run schedule instead of just walking all of it. I may not be able to do the entire 13 miles as a walk/run, but I’m going to try.

Yesterday was another CrossFit day. We had several new people there (all of whom did great!). Since there were so many of us our WOD changed from front squats and ring rows to Tabatas. In case you’re not sure what a Tabata is, it’s where you go all out for 20 seconds giving everything you have, then you rest for 10 seconds and repeat. Our WOD consisted of 8 Tabata rounds of Ring Rows (pull ups for those who can do them), Wall Balls, Ball Slams, Burpees, and Squats. My arms were quite tired by the time we finished the Ring Rows that my throwing was a bit sad on the wall balls. I rather enjoyed the ball slams, but in retrospect I don’t know that I was getting my arms up high enough. I was concentrating on getting my squat in as I slammed down and didn’t pay much attention to where my arms were. Then came the dreaded burpees. OMG….they killed me. I can’t just fall down and bounce back up like a lot of them can, so I was rather slow to get down and up. In fact, after 4 rounds I think I only got 2 in for the last 4 rounds. There were a couple of times I was thinking “I’m just going to lay here”, but I had to make myself get back up and get ready to go again. I couldn’t jump my feet back up under me so I got on my knees and got up…probably should have tried to walk my feet in instead because I bruised my knees up pretty good. And…it was a good thing I was wearing long pants or I think I’d have skinned them as well.

Needless to say, I need to work on my core so I can jump my legs back and forth without having to get on my knees. Shane didn’t say one word to me on how horribly I was doing them. More than likely he was just glad I was still moving. Then we moved on to the squats. There was no weight, just as many as you could do. I felt pretty good but I was tired so I know my form was a bit off. This was the last round of tabatas so I was trying my best to make sure I wasn’t “bowing” (bending my torso too far forward). The burpees really zapped me and made me somewhat nauseous so I took a spot close to the door hoping for a breeze to come through. At one point I heard Shane say my name, but I was too far into my own world that I didn’t hear what he said. Hopefully it wasn’t anything that needed correcting because otherwise I just ignored him (not intentionally).

Once we were completely finished, I grabbed my water and had to get outside where it was cooler. Mike was waiting in the car, so I walked over and stood with the door open for a bit. He started chuckling because I looked like I’d just been run over…which I felt like at the time! We got home and had Lemon Thyme Chicken. I only had the 1 chicken breast and I was full. I find that I get full very quickly after my CrossFit days. Maybe it’s just from being tired? Not sure. But, I’m normally hungry in the morning!

Today I’m a little sore on my arms. When I first started going to CrossFit I would get extremely sore. In fact, I stayed sore for at least a week solid! I had to hold on to the wall to help myself sit down. It was quite sad. Now, I get sore but it’s the kind of sore where when you move that muscle you know it’s been worked out but you’re not groaning! So, I will take that as a sign that I’m improving!

PS…I really want to weigh myself to see if I’ve lost anything. I think the flab next to my knees is getting smaller and I’ve changed my diet so surely I’ve lost something. But I made a deal with myself that I would not weigh myself but once a month for now.

NovGTD Wrap Up


****Warning….long post!**

Well, I didn’t complete my 60 miles I had planned. In fact, I only completed 53% of that with 32 miles. I’m a little disappointed in my mileage, but I’m not upset with myself. For the month of November I stepped out of my comfort zone and did things I didn’t think I would do. It started with a tryout Crossfit class. That class literally put me out of commission for about 5 days. I was sore beyond anything I had felt before, but I was glad for it. That meant I had really pushed myself and my body was responding! Of course, that also meant that I didn’t get any treadmill work in. So, I wasn’t able to log the Crossfit toward NovGTD, but that was alright. Phil said it beautifully in his wrap-up.

Then the holidays came and I got in my own way. I was so busy with holiday stuff and visiting my families (mine and his). This Thanksgiving I didn’t have any Turkey!! Can you believe that?! I had some sort of cheesy stuffing at my in-laws (her version of a meal because the turkey had just been put in the oven) and ham at my family’s party. I didn’t over indulge and fall asleep on the couch! Plus, I got to spend some quality time with my family. In a #mefirst move, I decided to only visit my Dad’s side of the family this year for Thanksgiving. Normally, I go to my Mom’s side at 11, my Dad’s at 3 and my in-laws at 7. It always makes for a very uncomfortable day. You can’t tell anyone that you’ve already ate! “Get you some food!!” I know they mean well, but it would be nice not to feel pressured to eat something. This year, I needed a little bit of a break, so I went to my Dad’s side since my Grandmother was out of the hospital. I have already lost one Grandmother this year, so I wanted to see my Memaw, more to let her know I love her in case anything does happen.

I did feel bad for not going to my Aunt Linda’s house. I thoroughly enjoy seeing all of my family, so I missed seeing that clan! However, I met up with my Uncle Eric for lunch last Sunday and I’m going to see my Aunt Linda and Uncle Richard sometime this weekend for their Church’s Christmas Choir Festival. I also tried out a new church on Sunday. That’s a long story, for another time, but it’s all part of trying to make myself healthy. It’s not just about the physical and mental aspects!

Yesterday, I signed up for a month’s worth of torture, I mean Crossfit. My friend Michelle and I got our butt’s handed to us again! Although, this go ’round, I wasn’t nearly as embarrassed by my performance. I was able to hang in there with Michelle for the most part. I am sore today and I imagine will be quite sore tomorrow. Tomorrow is another Crossfit day, so I better work some of this out! Nov. 30th’s WOD was as many reps as possible in 20 minutes of 5 Clean to Overheads, 20 sit ups, and 15 step ups. If I remember correctly, I got in a total of 6 rounds.

So, while I didn’t get my 60 miles, I am happy with what I have achieved. I am slowly and steadily moving toward being a healthier me. I joined an extreme fitness class (either brilliant or crazy, haven’t figured that one out yet), I started moving toward a well rounded approach to my health (Mind, Body & Soul), and I lost 1.3 lbs. Yeah, I know…it’s not much but it’s still a loss! I didn’t gain any weight over the Thanksgiving holidays!

What’s next? Why…DecGTD of course!! The spreadsheet has mileage again, but this time I decided to focus on hours of exercise. I entered in 20 hours, which equates to 4 1-hour workouts a week. If I can make myself more consistently workout, then I’ll be happy. Plus, I think I should be able to count Crossfit for something. Afterall, I do get whooped every time I’m there!

Happy last month of the year! Let’s make this a good one!

I Took the Fit Out of Crossfit!


It all started when I agreed to try out a Crossfit class with some ladies from work. I watched one video and I have to admit it truly scared me. I walk on a normal basis and I have no doubt I could go out and walk a 5K tomorrow if need be, but I am a wimp when it comes to strength training. For better or worse, I’m a clutz and tend to try to use weight machines (if I do strength training) so I don’t drop the weights. So, the idea of putting free weights above my head wasn’t too enticing!

Michelle, Alaina, Jennifer and I showed up to DynamicFit full of curiosity. There were a few guys there and the trainer, Shane.

Everyone was so supportive and helpful. While I definitely felt out of my element, I didn’t feel judged. Shane put us through the warm-up and stretching. The first circuit consisted of a wall handstand. BWahahahaha…yeah, that so wasn’t happening for me. The girls and I were given some pvc stands and boxes to scale the workout to our abilities. My legs started shaking. We had to hold that for a minute, then move on to a squat for a minute, then a pull up hold for a minute, and an L lift (I think it was called) for…yep you got it, a minute. Then REPEAT! My legs were shaking so bad on the handstand and squats. Then I couldn’t hold a pull up to save my life so I just kept jumping and trying to hold the best I could. When it was over I thought I might get sick. Thankfully Michelle and I had a light lunch!

The next circuit was to hold a weight bar overhead (I just used the dow, or wooden bar, for today) and do 15 squats, then a sprint, and repeat 5 times total. I really enjoyed the squats. I felt strong in my movements, but as soon as I put the bar down to do my run my legs became jello and didn’t want to move. After about the 3rd sprint (which really turned out to be a fast walk) a muscle around my ankle started really bothering me. I guess I have weak ankle muscles…will need to work on that. I finished that set in 12 minutes 30 seconds. Not too bad, but not great either.

This was me after:

Shane kicked my ass. So, how did I like it? I didn’t like it at all during the class. Feelings of failure and embarrassment filled my head through the entire exercise. Everyone else was able to do so much more than me and here I was, someone who has been walking/running on a normal basis, and I couldn’t do the sprints. I decided I was NOT going to do this again. I don’t need to be humiliated like that.

Then….I got my wits back. No one was judging me there. No one was acting as though I didn’t belong. It was me that was judging myself. I should have been proud of myself. I completed a hard workout and I was still standing! What did I learn? I have strong, capable legs that are screaming to be sculpted. It is evident I’m not pushing myself as hard as I should be with my cardio. I am able to hang in there despite my tracheal stenosis. I didn’t just put my shoes away and stop trying to get healthier like some might. Last of all….I kept repeating the phrase on the gym wall and realized it’s true.

My husband asked me “Are you going to go back?” The honest answer is I don’t want to. However, I think I need to. I think it’s important to push myself out of my comfort zone if I truly want t make myself healthier. I am grateful for my body and the fact that I don’t have too many restrictions even at my size (225lbs). So, I should let it know that by treating it right!